For almost two weeks, my igoogle verse of the day was stuck on 2 Cor. 12:8-10. Two weeks, from the moment I discovered changing my academic plan was a possibility until the moment I turned in my final form declaring my major. No lie. Coincidence? Definitely not. For one, I do not believe in coincidences. More importantly, strong convictions with perfect timing generally should not be overlooked.
I have been a little, eh , emotional over the last few days. Tears are making rather regular appearances. My thorn in my side is digging in at full capcity, the devil is hitting my buttons, and God is showing me pieces of His plan- intimidating pieces of His plan. I cry out of neither happiness nor sorrow.. but from a place of joy in the peace that comes with knowing that I, a great sinner, am truly following a great God.
When I am at my weakest, I often need a reminder of God’s promises to me and the truth that He has spoken in my life. I call it the affirmation study. I remind myself of scriptural truth in sentimental verses, of things God has done in my life, of prophetic words given for my life, of the reality of my strengths and weaknesses. It is both encouraging and humbling, and above all, it recenters me in the truth that His grace is enough.
Tonight I set aside the evening to pray and quickly realized that I was in need of a study session. It has been awhile, and the highlights of the review all led me back to 2 Cor 12. Accept weakness, allow God to be strong, and “embrace the call to leadership.”
It is time to say goodbye to my strength and to my safety plan… and to say hello to those future possibilities. If I believe my God is who He says He is- and I do- then His grace is more than sufficient.